It’s been a while since I last published a blog post on my website. I’ve been caught up with work at the office, and I truly apologize for the delay. Thank you for patiently waiting for my updates.

This year’s Gangamma Jatara was a unique experience—very different from previous years. It wasn’t just about dressing up and walking through the streets of Tirupati in my feminine self. Instead, it turned out to be a deeply spiritual experience. To my surprise, I didn’t even feel the urge to make Instagram reels after getting dressed. I simply embraced the moment, feeling completely at peace and natural in my own skin. It wasn’t something I was imitating or acting out—this time, it felt like a genuine part of me. That authenticity resonated through every cell of my body. For a fleeting moment, I even wondered if my crossdressing journey had reached its destination. Only time will tell.

As always, our beloved friends—Ammulu Bujji, Srivalli Srikant, and others—led the Bonalu procession, carrying earthen pots with food offerings and lit oil lamps on their heads, as a tribute to the Goddess. I followed them, filled with devotion and joy. On our way to the temple, someone from the crowd recognized me. “Madam, you’re Meghana Dixit, right? I love your writings. Please continue posting on your website,” he said. He even recognized my sister Sowmya, who was walking with me, and praised her work too. That small moment of appreciation truly made my day. I’ve always believed that anything done with a good heart will eventually touch someone’s life in a meaningful way.

This year also brought a lovely change. Suguna akka and her family performed Bonalu from their home to the temple. I was lucky to accompany them along with Nisha, Nishika, Suguna akka’s sisters, and their sweet mother. Her mom, who is 55 years old, carried the Bonam with such devotion—it was incredibly inspiring.

Travelling in public transport while dressed in my feminine self is a world of its own.

The moment you step in, eyes turn toward you. Some people watch quietly with curiosity, while a few women give you that full scan from head to toe. At first, it can make your heart race—nervousness creeping in—but then comes the part that makes it all worth it: a warm smile, a gentle nod, or even a compliment about your beauty.

It’s one of those little joys women experience every day—the silent admiration, the unspoken connection. Of course, I know there’s another side to it too, the part many women complain about. But in that moment, I chose to soak in the positives.

That day, I was traveling to a remote village with Suguna akka’s mother and another aunt from her family. Our destination was the grand inauguration of a Kavamma temple—a local goddess believed to be a descendant of Maa Parvati. After the ceremony, we were invited to have dinner at the home of one of the villagers. They were complete strangers to me, yet their warmth made me feel as if I belonged there.

New faces. New energy. New stories. Everything about that night felt fresh and inviting. I moved with the flow, without overthinking—just letting my heart guide me. I could feel my femininity glowing from the inside out, like a gentle fire that warmed my soul.

In that moment, surrounded by kindness and devotion, I wasn’t just dressed as myself—I was myself. And that feeling… put me on cloud nine.

Another special moment was celebrating my birthday as Meghana. Sweet little Nishika applied mehendi for me, and we had a simple cake-cutting ceremony. But the joy of being surrounded by like-minded, accepting people made it feel truly magical. For the past 10 years, I’ve been attending Gangamma Jatara, and every time, my birthday happens to fall on the second day. I feel so blessed to receive Gangamma's darshan in my feminine form on such a meaningful day.

As part of my yearly tradition, I also met my lovely friends from Bengali, Kannada, Tamil, Hindi, and Telugu communities. Reuniting after a whole year always fills my heart with warmth and happiness. This time, I shared some exciting news with them—I’m starting a new website exclusively for our Crossdressing community! When I gave them my business cards this year, it was just an idea. But now, it’s finally becoming real. I’ve completed the company registration and other government formalities, including getting the import-export license—a huge milestone for me, since I’ll be dealing exclusively in imported products from places like Dubai, Hong Kong, Singapore, and Vietnam.

I’m also incredibly grateful to my dear friends abroad who agreed to help ship products. For years, I’ve been sourcing my personal items through them, and now, I’ll be able to bring those same quality products to all of you. I’m happy to share that even before launching the website, I’ve already received many inquiries through social media.

I know this post might feel like a mix of many thoughts, but thank you for sticking with me. I truly appreciate your love and support.

Lastly, I want to thank you all from the bottom of my heart for making CDSTORIES.IN such a success. It’s our community space—a place where we can express ourselves freely through our stories, without fear or judgment.

P.S: I was very thankful to each one of you for your kindness and love. I was completely tied up with launching online store and was not able to spend time on my website. I will try to write content for my website as and when I get some time.